Wednesday, February 20, 2008

8 Months

Sorry, no pictures today. I am having a day of memories and reflection. Today is exactly 8 months since my Dad passed away and it is also Wednesday. Wednesday was one of my Dad's regular days off and I always make a point of visiting the cemetary on wednesdays or sundays. So today I will go and lay down my rose.

It really makes me sit here and truly be thankful for the things I have or had. I had probably one of the closest relationships a Daughter can have with her Dad. I may have only had 27 years, but they were all good ones. I am selfish in a way that I wanted more. I wanted more for my daughters. I see McKenzie looking at the photos of my Dad that are now scattered troughout our house and her stare is almost blank. It doesn't really mean to much to her as she will probably not remember him at all. She was only 10 months old when he passed. My other daughter however, will remember him forever and even 8 months later still talks about him everyday. Which is hard.

With those thoughts I can also say this: If you do not cherish those around you through all the good times and bad, perhaps you need review your life and the things you should probably change. If the most important people are suddenly gone from your life can you sit back and say "yes, that person was proud of the person I am"? Luckily with my Dad I can say that! I don't wish the pain of a loss upon anyone, because it sucks. I guess you can't really ever imagne until you experience it. I had to experience it much sooner then I ever wanted, I mean really I still have all my Grand Parents and yet had to say good bye to my Dad. I also was the one who had to phone his parents to tell them. A phone call I will never forget! I am also helping a friend right now whose Dad is not doing very well and if you are reading my dear...Be Strong and remember you can count on all your friends, including me, hugs and kissess!!

Treat people Kind, be true to yourself and who you really are. Take pride in your actions and when something like this happens to you, you can take comfort in knowing they would have been proud! To my Dad, I will alwyas Love him, He will lways be my Best friend and I will miss him always.

Thanks for reading today and I hope to be back later this week with something a little more fun to talk about. SO have a great day!!



  1. I almost lost my Dad to a crazy accident in the spring. I can only imagine your loss, my heart goes out to you. I know I want more time with my Mom and Dad, I know I am lucky to have it.

  2. THank so much. That is very much appreciated. I am thankful for a big family nad we are all very close and have pulled through it together. He also had 2 heart attacks 6 prior to his death so we are all very thankful for the 6 extra years!!

  3. I know your pain. It'll be 5 years, this month that my dad passed away. The pain never goes away. You just learn to deal with it on a day by day basis. I wish you could've had more time with your dad. But I realize that no matter how long you have with your loved ones, it's never long enough. That's why you should cherish each day with them, as you said. I realized the importance of this while my dad was alive, thankfully. He is the whole reason I have the life I have today. He saved me from an orphanage in a foreign country. I have so much to be thankful for with him as well as my heavenly Father. God bless you.

  4. I just found you blog via Nichole's blog. I understand what you are going through with the loss of your father. My father passed in August 07 (on my birthday) and there isn't a day that goes by, that I don't think of him. I am thankfully from a close family and it really has helped. My motto for this year is "Don't forget to hug the ones we love"

    Hugs to you,

  5. Theresa & Melissa,

    Thank you so much for your kind words. I am sorry to hear of your losses. I agre with you both, cherishing and loving and hugging the ones you love everyday is very important and I am glad that I live my life that way.

  6. My dad passed away 8 months ago this month, too! I cry every day for him. I miss him so much. It's been the hardest thing that I have ever been through. I hope to some day be able to talk about all the funny things he would say and do. He was such a character! However, I can't seem to be able to without crying. I know that day will come!

  7. Jewels - My heart goes out to you. I lost my father to cancer in September of 2000. It has been 7 years and not one day goes by without me thinking of him. I must say though that my thoughts are now more joyful as the hurt of loosing him has slowly passed and now each memory is one that brings a smile to my face. I often feel his touch upon me and sense his presence. He will always be with me as will your dad. My prayers to you and your family.

  8. Sorry for your loss, Jewels! I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose one of your parents.

  9. eloquently put. Although I have not gone through this I have lost many family members since 1998 and every loss was difficult for me so I can only imagine what you have gone through in the past 8 months.
    My parents were separated when I was 2 and for the most part I have just mourned the loss of a dad since he really doesn't want to have anything to do with us.
    Thank you so much for sharing your story. You have obviously struck a chord with many other readers and I think sharing is a wonderful road to moving forward in life.